Making sense of my Reality

When I sleep -- Senses are sleeping, body functions are running but something is awake. Breath comes in and goes out at its command.

Eyes are sleeping but “It” sees, ears are sleeping, but “It” listens. Body is sleeping but “It feels” touches, feels pain and pleasure.  Tongue and nose are sleeping but it tastes and smells. The experience is as close to the one when these are awake.

Then it creates and realizes that I am the creator of “This”,  location is my creation, matter is my creation, feelings are my creation, actions are my creation. I take so many shapes and I now realize that there is no one but “Me”. There is no one but “Me”.  I create, I multiple and I play with my creation as if it is different. I go through pleasure and pain in this play by measurement to “I”.
 
When I am awake -- “It” still creates “This” but bases some (not all)  of “Its” creations on the images from “That”.  

I know not what is “That” I live in,  “This”  that is my creation, I only get shadow of that from my five gates, I mix it with my memory of past and my imagination and still create “This” and live in that as if it is “That”. 

There are beings who also live in “This” of there own creation.   My “This” and Their “This”  is all there to this human world.

Who knows what is “That”,  who can know what is “That” ,  it is beyond known and beyond unknown. I only live in “This” and my boundaries end here.

Investigation into nature of truth and human experience of reality

In summary, what we think as reality is merely a thought. Consciousness is a thought, ego is a thought, urge is a thought,  fear is a thought,  desire is a thought or whatever human beings think as reality is merely a thought that may (seldom does) or may not match up with the reality out there.  For simplicity I have called primary thought as consciousness and all the others as the network of secondary thoughts.

External interfaces to thought are two, namely, first, the Experience created by senses  and the second, Memory.

The primary purpose of consciousness thought, the first and basic thought, is to create a high fidelity images/shadow/recreation of actual reality out there so that human body could survive. The tools that consciousness uses are 5 senses to create this high fidelity shadow of what is out there and recall of previous experiences related to experienced objects to make sense based on history (Past).

When the child is born, s/he has no memory apart from some hard wired memory of crying on physical discomfort.   Through a process of cross validation of cause and effect of sensory experiences, gradually first building blocks of memory get created.

When the child starts to move around, cross validation of spatial experience creates secondary spatial memory elements. To give you an example,  I experience glass kept on table as a thought, I can go touch it by moving in space and it validates that my thought is the truth.

Human internally created experience of external physical, spatial and material reality is so near perfect that it validates every single time and gradually human consciousness starts taking recall of past experience as the truth out there. When in fact, the human’s only have access to the internal recreated experience or the “Thought” of external reality based on previously stored cross validated thoughts of reality.

The trouble of humanity starts when human consciousness starts using this belief that every thought as the truth out there, even to things that are beyond the space and matter.  

As the belief of “My thought is truth” is now so strongly embedded in primary thought,  that now a human starts attributing other thoughts as truth, for example, god exists merely because a thought thinks so,  a person is good, bad etc.. merely because a thought thinks so,   dooms day would come merely because a thought thinks so.

To live in the truth, one needs to see through is dichotomy of physical and non-physical world and re-start the cross validation process to enquire about the truth of thoughts beyond the matter.

In other words, keeping up with the truth requires a consciousness that constantly questions and seeks validations before blindly believing in recalled thoughts or imagined thoughts as the truth.